Today I feel like Beyonce.
I seriously feel stronger than I've felt in a while. Even during winter break when I dragged myself to the really intimidating gym (where everyone from my high school flocked) and hopped on an elliptical every day, today I truly pushed myself. And I loved every second of it.
Back up...
today wasn't all rainbows and butterflies.
I started off stressing over maybe not being able to get everything done, calling my mom (which is always a good idea) and running around campus like a crazy person. I wish I could have told myself that today was going to end up being a GREAT day.
I had to remind myself of a time when one of my friends at Pitt once assured me,
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
Yes. Yes yes yes.
Things started turning from stressful to normal after lunch. My life in a nutshell. =)
But really, the real reason was because I just took a couple minutes to sit on my bed, take a few breaths and not think about how I might not have gotten all the answers right on my test. It pays off to take a step back and reconvene once in a while. Even for just a minute or two.
Then, music class rolled around. I really like how laid back the feel of it is, but we also get to learn how some revolutionary women in history kicked butt in the music world.
Plus, cool decor. Everywhere. Future wall goals right here.
So that was a really fun time. We listened to some of the first music composed by women in the US. Nice job ladies, you da real MVPs.
Class dismissed. Bring in the dancin' lobstas.
No really though, when class was over I was shaking.
Cycling time. My first ever cycling class! I kept telling myself all week that it was going to be torture - that I would keel over halfway through class and have to leave before I stopped breathing.
Walking in, guess which were the only two seats left (one for myself and my roommate). Yep, the ones DIRECTLY in the very front of everybody, where the entire class can watch you the whole time and just judge.......
Class was starting, our instructor got up on her bike, clicked play, and we were off.
The very first thing I noticed was how uncomfortable the seat was. Little did I know that was the last external thing I would think about for the next hour.
I really couldn't even tell you how, but something kept telling me to keep going. Inside I told myself that this was not going to be my defeat. This class was a short period of my life that I want to be long and healthy. I pushed on.
Our instructor was awesome. I don't know what it was about her, but I felt very comfortable being in the front to my surprise, where she could literally watch the sweat drip from my face. I got to study her technique with every pedal. Seeing how she was working at the same exact pace as me, at the same rhythm and resistance really gave me the confidence that, maybe I could finish the workout.
It ended up being a really fun time! I am actually looking forward to next week's class. My friend and I may not be able to feel our butts at the moment, but we got through it, and with the right attitude.
So really, there was nothing to be scared about. If you want to do something, make yourself do it. Nobody is stopping you except for yourself. Your body will thank you afterwards, it is your mind that you have to convince. You may think the girl with the perfect body in the second row will actually care about what you are doing, or that the instructor isn't going to make it fun for you, but you would be lying to yourself. It is all about telling yourself that you are there to make the class fun, and that you are doing this for your own happiness and health. You think that you can't keep up because of your thighs? Think again. If I did it, so can anyone.
Until next time babes,
Xx
Amanda
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